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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Currently Listening
Soundtrack to Your Life
By Ashley Parker Angel
Let U Go
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Goodbye </3

re-read if you wish, I added some stuff...again...

Wow.  Another year has gone by insanely fast and we all took it for granted.   I never got to say the things I wanted to say to some people...I never got to tell some people how much they really affected me these past two (or more) years...I hate getting all sappy at the end of the year, but I also know it is basically inevitable that this happen.  Every single one of the people I met in middle school has changed me, some more than others.  There are some people I'm sure I wouldn't have survived without and some people that made me feel like I wouldn't survive middle school.  It has been an insane two years: they were full of drama, completely crazy, and absolutely stressful, but most of all these two years were completely MEMORABLE.

These two years were extremely short, but we've all changed so much.  We've gained best friends and lost a few along the way.  Our hearts have been broken but there was always someone there to glue all the little pieces back together.  We learned more than we ever imagined we could.  Everyone has undergone personality changes-some of us more than others.  Throughout these past two years, we've learned more about ourselves and the world around us.  It's not the carefree fairytale we thought it would be when we were younger.  No longer are we little kids with someone there to hold our hands as we cross the street and ready to give us a bandaid for every little boo-boo.  In middle school we learned how to take care of ourselves; how much responsibility we're going to need in the years to come.  We've all gone through times where we just wanted to give up and go back to the way things were.  Then there were moments that we would give absolutely anything to go back to again...maybe it was having that first 'love' or an insane moment with a best friend.  We will be leaving Rocky Run Middle School soon, but that doesn't mean Rocky Run Middle School will be leaving us.  In high school and beyond, there are people we will remember for the rest of our lives; there will be times that we will never forget, no matter how hard we try.

I can still remember that moment in time when I had left elementary school.  For me, I wasn't really leaving my friends-I knew I'd see them again next year-it was leaving behind an entire way of lifeThis year is going to be harder to leave.  We had all changed and matured so much in these two years that the people we had met and befriended affected us greatly.  I can name about 50 people off the top of my head who have changed who I am and who I hope to be.  Sure, some people didn't affect me as much as others; that's bound to happen.  There were about three or four people that I can honestly say affected me so much I just can't imagine what I would've done without them.  There are also a handful of people who made me so much stronger just by not being there for me...just by disliking me.  Just because I had so many hard times during the past two years, I also realize that there have been so many more fun moments.  The 'adventures' at Busch Gardens, choir concerts, different classes&&teachers, and moments of pure insanity are only some of many things that I will remember fondly.  Even though I probably never said it as much as I should've, I really, truly love all the friends that were there for me this year and last year.  You have all been through much-I know that I have-but many of you managed to have something to say to cheer me up.  I've learned so much about myself and life that has changed me completely, as well as some things I wish I'd never learned.  ;)  If I've signed your yearbook, many of you know for a fact that I can write a whole lot.  That isn't just because I'm articulate; it's because you've all given me something to write about.  Moments that we cried, laughed, fought, etc. during are permanently etched in my mind.  It's insane how much has happened in two years and how fast everything is ending.  Not only am I leaving friends I love dearly, but I'm leaving a school that has taught me so much.

Some things I learned:
**The only real limitations in life are the ones you put on yourself.  If you allow yourself to do something, you will achieve it.
**Sometimes it's the people who hated you that end up helping you the most.
**Time waits for no one; make the most of your life now or you'll regret it later.
**Never wonder about what could've been, instead focus on what can happen now.
**If you think that everyone around you has changed, look again and see if maybe it's you who's changed instead.


Everyone always says that we'll keep in touch and be friends forever.  I hate to say it, but it's probably not true.  I mean, most of us-although we are friends-will have lost anything in common.  No longer will we be able to complain about our teachers or the amount of homework piled on us with people going to different school.  The different settings and new friends will change us in ways that people in other schools won't be able to understand.  Our schedules will conflict, making it hard for us to just see a movie or go to the mall together.  I hate saying this because I'd like to keep every single one of my friends close by, but deep down I know this will happen.  I remember that on the last few days of 6th grade, we told the people going to different schools that we'd stay in touch...we'd still hang out...that we'd still be friends.  Can you honestly say that you still talk to those people?  I love you all so much; I really hope you know that.  There's a part of me, however, that doesn't want to hang on to false hope.  There's a part of me that knows this is the final goodbye for most of us. 


Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Currently Watching
The Phantom of the Opera (2-Disc Special Edition)
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Wow, I'm completely BORED. I've created a banner for my up-and-coming new layout. I made the banner all by myself! I must say, I'm very proud. Currently I'm done with like 90% of my poem. I need like 3 more lines to complete it. That isn't as good as I hoped it would be. It's basically about how I've been living in the shadow of others and that I'm looking for my moment to shine. Then I have an epiphany and realize I don't need to prove myself to others. Needless to say, that was inspired while I was riding the bus this afternoon crying. Yes, I'm a loser because I'm jealous of my friends. Whatever. Quiz time while I wait for the inspiration for my last few lines!

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Alyssa
2. Yeah, I don't have any nicknames. Oh wait, I know!
3. That loser over there.

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. xofalling2deep
2. lit0mizzd0rkwad
3. xoaNG3l 0fMuZIc

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My eyes. Everyone says they're gorgeous. They're the one thing I like about myself.
2. I'm not 100lbs overweight???
3. My hair never gets messy. I love it.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My stupid fudging height. As of yesterday, I'm 4'11 ³/4" JUST one-fourth of an effing inch to 5 feet. I hate it. I hate it all. I've SHRUNK since the summer.
2. I have no strength or athletic ability whatsoever.
3. Eh. I don't like my feet. >.<

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. FILIPINA<3333333
2. I'm one-eight Spanish (from Spain)
3. N/A

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T STAND:
1. Being compared to someone else who is clearly much better than me
2. Those people that pretend to be your friend to your face but make fun of you behind your back
3. Feeling emotional pain

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Horror films. Seriously, I will never watch one.
2. Stalkers/Rapists. They're just creepy.
3. Insane people. Also really creepy.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SHOWS:
1. Suite Life of Zack and Cody (DISNEYCHANNEL=LOVE)
2. Alias
3. American Idol

THREE MOVIES YOU CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
1. Rent (Just finished watching it for the 10th time)
2. Phantom of the Opera (Currently watching it for the 20-something-th time)
3. Titanic (Definitely NOT a musical...XD)

THREE MOVIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO WATCH:
1. She's the Man
2. American Dreamz
3. ehhhhh

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Cellphone
2. iPod (or any form of music really)
3. My darling computer<3

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Jeans
2. Light pink cami
3. Phantom of the Opera earrings<3

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. That amazing feeling where you're dizzy, giddy, nervous, drunk (on love), and completely amazed every time you see that 'special someone'
2. Love<333333
3. Common interests (otherwise what would we talk about??)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE GENDER THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Hair. Gotta have amazing hair.
2. Eyes. His eyes have to be completely captivating.
3. Intelligence. Gotta be smart. Not like the next Einstein (EINSTEINETTE. XD High School Musical...okay back to this), but smart enough to carry on a conversation with me.

THREE BAD HABITS:
1. I'm totally dramatic. Everyone hates it, including myself.
2. Hurting people...it's so mean but I just can't.
3. I try to hard to please everyone around me that I sometimes forget what I want.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Singing/Dancing
2. Random internet stuffffff
3. Writing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Finish my freaking poem!
2. Figure out what clubs/sports to take at TJ
3. SLEEP

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING OR CURRENTLY PURSUING:
1. Law, but not crimminal. Too complicated.
2. Something in medince, not necessarily a doctor.
3. POPSTAR! Oh my gosh, who doesn't want to be a famous popstar? $.$

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Philippines<3 Visit mi familia!
2. Hawaii *on the way to the Philippines! XD*
3. Europe *on the way back from the Philippines!!!!!!*

THREE KIDS' NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Kathleen (it's pretty and simple!)
2. Nicholas
3. Jeanne

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Find my prince charming and get married! <3
2. Graduate college and get my master's
3. See the world! Well, all the nice parts

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. Hello, I'm in like ALL pink
2. Shopping=LIFE (well, after music and DisneyChannel)
3. I say like WAAAAAAY more than I should

INITIALS OF THREE CRUSHES:
(I'll just leave this blankkkkkkkkkkk) hehe
1.
2.
3.

THREE PEOPLE YOU TAG TO DO THE SURVEY:
1. Eh, if anyone wants tooooo
2.
3.

Okay, still not done with my poem...

edit//
YEAH! FINISHED THE POEM! Yay me.

Looking back on all I've done,
I somehow feel it's not enough.
I cannot go on any longer
While living in the shadow of others.

The rain is falling harder
As my dreams come crashing down.
The aspirations I once had for myself
Are fading into the distance.

My fear of failure haunts me.
I wonder if I’ll ever have the chance
To be like a star shining in the sky,
To finally have a moment of glory.

The curtains are closing in now,
There’s not much time left.
I need to prove to them all,
I need to show the world,
There’s something more to me,
Something grand I have yet to show.

As I stand wishing I could be more,
My vision clears and I finally see,
The truth is deep down in my heart.
Shadows surrounding my heart and soul
Finally disappear and I am free.

edit2//
New Layout! Totally customized by yours truly! Haha yay me!

Lyrics::Catch Me When I Fall;Ashlee Simpson
BGMusic::Catch Me When I Fall;Ashlee Simpson
Layout::Simple, Completely Grayscale
Banner::Feat. ME<3


Tuesday, April 18, 2006

New layouttttt!  I think it's pretty...wow, I need a new profile pic...GAH I FEEL SO RANDOM!

Nothing really to say, field trip today wasn't all that great...

Longer post next time, I promise...


Sunday, April 16, 2006

HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!!

OMG I'm back......


Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Currently Listening
Mulan: An Original Walt Disney Records Soundtrack
By Jerry Goldsmith
Reflection
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40-day xanga/aim break


Alrightyyyyyyy...well, it's Lent so I kinda sorta have to give something up.  Since I was planning on giving up AIM and Xanga for a bit anyway, I'm gonna go ahead and give it up for Lent.  I really, really really really really need to catch up on this stuff they call 'schoolwork' so I won't be back for a while...Just leave some comments for me when I get back because I'm gonna be out of the loop for the next 40 days...I still can use that thing they call a cellphone if you really wanna talk to me...(and you better wanna talk to me)

love, Alyssa
goodbye for the next 40 daysss



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